Oh hum

You know its one of those days. Things don't go your way. You feel like crap. Nothing seems to be going for you. I hate those days. Whatever happened to those days where things were simpler. I guess that was in preschool. But now things are different, you have to take care of yourself, do everything yourself, be a grown up. I don't want to be a grown up anymore. I want to be a kid again. I want to play with GI Joes and transformers. I want life to be like it was simpler.

I don't want to deal with bills or think about ex's. I don't want to think about what I can and can't eat, because I may get fat. I don't want to go the gym. I don't want to worry about a job. I don't want to do anything. I want to sleep, and sleep till a new millenium. Is that possible?

I want to find meaning in everything that I do. I want to be a better person. I want to be happy, but lately all I'am is sad and down. Its a struggle, and I can't seem to pull myself up. I hate it so much. Uggghhhh... Why O why, life is just so blah. I just need to get back into a normal groove or something. I need to stop thinking about my past. I need to try and get out of this rut. I need to think of what is and not what was. Hope for the future that it will be great, and that maybe things will make a full circle for me. That is what I will hope for. The future...Salute to the future, and what make come...Hope